DAY 054 – DESIGNING DANGEROUSLY

Merge

As I get older, I don’t want to calcify, I want to flow. I don’t want to shore up my boundaries, I want to merge, to bleed into other stories, other lives, and other scenes. Shaw said something to the effect of: “when I die I want to be all used up.” I want that.

My life has been a journey of coming to a state where I laugh more easily and cry more easily, where I am able and eager to express a richness to others that I aspire to but at times feel bereft of.* I have been reminded the past three weeks of how rich I am in Love, in Joy, in good Work to do, and all these things deserve capital letters. I am rich and you all are my secret, quiet wealth. Thank you for the conversations, the long-form emails, the stops in the hallway and making me remember. May we spur one another forward.

*idea wholly stolen from M.D. Herter Norton’s translator note at the beginning of Rilke’s Letters to a Young Poet which I haven’t re-read in a while and it is still WONDERFUL.